-The Inn of the Sixth Happiness
A quote from one of my top favorite movies. The story of a woman who didn’t believe in cramming religion down peoples throats. But rather sincerly interested in loving people. Giving those that were hungry, food. And those who thirst, drink.
“Never lie, steal, cheat, or drink. But if you must lie, lie in the arms of the one you love. If you must steal, steal away from bad company. If you must cheat, cheat death. And if you must drink, drink in the moments that take your breath away.” - Hitch
The title is not indicative by all accounts of the quote. I’m just in a hurt mood while also very aware that I fuckin love this quote. It’s what I thought life was all about. Just sometimes people tend to refuse to let you be you. So to anyone who’s going through the same thing, I say screw them! And fuckin be yourself. You’re not perfect. Allow yourself to evolve into the person you want to be.
“Watch your thoughts, for they become words.Watch your words, for they become actions. Watch your actions, for they become habits. Watch your habits, for they become your character. And watch your character, for it becomes your destiny. What we think, we become.” - The Iron Lady
Change comes with life. Remember, a beautiful vase wasn’t that way all the time. And that pot that helps gives you food and drink?…used to be a pile of mud and goo. Sure it’s hard and frustrating to get to a point where you are what you were striving to be.
But don’t give up.
Even when others have given up on you.
NEVER give up.
After watching several documentaries on netflix such as Get Vegucated and Forks over Knives I’ve decided that in my efforts to totally revamp my life and be a healthier and happier individual I’m going to adopt a 6 week long trial period of Vegetarianism.
Not only do I think that it will exponentially increase my health levels but also I (now having been educated to some degree with it) will be standing against the cruel actions practiced by meat processing plants.
I’ve also been working out daily at the gym for a minimum of three hours each. Since this I have slept better and physically felt better then I have in the last several months. :)
“Too many guys think I’m a concept, or I’ll complete them, or I’m gona make them feel alive. But I’m just a fucked up girl lookin for my own peace of mind; don’t assign me yours. “
Fucking scared shitless right now!! Driving off towards the north with the cold creeping over my right shoulder and an amazing sunset warming my left, I can’t help but feel the giddy butterflies stir within my stomach. I’m finally doing it! I’m finally getting out of Oklahoma and heading towards a complete and amazing new start to the rest of my life!
Words really cannot express just how appreciative I am for those who have helped me get to this point and continue to encourage me in the dreams I aspire.
Yes, I realize I’m going into this with a little bit of a “balls to the wall” mindset, but fuck it! Ha! At least this time saying “fuck it” is launching me in a direction that is undoubtedly better and healthier for me then any other venture I’ve been on as of yet.
Maybe I’m growing up finally.
I don’t know.
But what I do know is I’m finally feeling a warm and invigorating sensation of happiness washing over me.
I’m getting another chance at life and one that’s completely left up to me to make it up to be whatever I want.
No reason to look over my shoulder, no need to feel like hiding my past. For at last, I’m leaving it IN the past.
“Peel the scars off my back, I don’t need them anymore.” :)
Yea, sure, shits happened and all. But I feel like Colorado has been holding out an offer of a new start ever since I first applied to the art institute there in Denver.
It wasn’t the right timing then. And I wouldn’t have done it differently even if I was offered the chance.
But it just goes to show that sometimes, what you desire greatest, has a way of coming back to you if you just don’t fucking give up.
So raise a glass for me, water, soda, or wine, and cheer on with me!
It might be hard to say who I am these days, but I go on anyway.
For the sake of me. ;)